Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Live in the Beauty of Today: September 2, 2009

Emily's personality is showing up everywhere. Her impact on my (Laura) life- she showed me how to live brighter and louder. When I would normally choose something that would match my wardrobe or house for the next 10 years, Emily would say (via my complete taste change during pregnancy)...

"turn up the volume, have a little fun, spice it up, make it loud, celebrate life, make a statement that means something, and no, it doesn't have to match, you don't have to like it tomorrow-
live in the beauty of today."
She/ her life showed me that today's gifts are not guaranteed tomorrow. This was the only pregnancy that I learned to thank God for the inconvenience, the challenges, and the discomforts. There was beauty in all of them because Emily was there, her strong heart was beating, and she was kicking and growing and reminding me to capture every moment.
Today is Wednesday, and for the past 20 weeks I've been calling Wednesdays her she would have turned 38 weeks. I miss her so much. Today I've been hanging onto Psalm 145:13 "God is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all he has made." He loves us, and this is part of his love... sometimes love says "no". I don't understand why He said "no" to us keeping Emily with us, but I know that He sees the total picture and I trust His love. I am so thankful that I know exactly where Emily is, and because God watched His own Son die on a cross for me and instead of me I know that I will see her again and that He will continue to be faithful to His promises of being my Healer, Comforter, and one who restores.


  1. Laura, the essence and aroma of Christ is POURING out of your life and out of Emily's.
    I love you so much. I am in absolute awe of your steadfastness and grace. It is stunning.

  2. Laura, my name is Angela and I am a friend of Stephanie's from church. I have been praying for you and Emily ever since Tim and Steph asked us to several months ago. Please know that the prayers will continue as you deal with the loss of your precious girl. Thank you for sharing her with us, and thank you for trusting in the Lord even though this is extremely difficult.